07 November 2009

Pulling myself together

You guys are wonderful.

Thanks for the support.

I feel better this morning. I've had a moment of zen or something. Whatever happened, I awoke feeling very in control. I haven't had this feeling for weeks. It feels damn good.

So, I'm on my second cup of coffee and planning to spend the day cleaning the house. We are getting together with friends tonight so I will have to eat and there will be alcohol but I can handle it. It is all I will consume for the day besides coffee and water.

I feel calmly aware of myself this morning. Accepting who I am, the good and the bad, and facing it head on.

Because deep down inside, away from the self-criticisms, away from the ED, away from the fears and anger...I know that I am worth loving.

Sometimes I fall down but I will never give up on me. Never.

Peace to you all and wishes for a productive day.


  1. I'm glad your feeling better,
    we're always here,
    stay strong x

  2. So lovely to read!

    We all get so bogged down in the hard parts and the sad parts. It is affirming and inspiring to have you see the positive things that others see.


  3. Finally found your blog and caught up <3

    Damn straight you are worth loving!!

    To quote a 90's rock song, "I get knocked down, but I get up again. You're never gonna keep me down!"

  4. ah, the dinner party - have fun! really, truly enjoy yourself, try to forget or damnit just ignore all the other parts of your life because life is now and it is worth living.

    sometimes company is the best remedy, even when you don't particularly want it.
    <3 Ginger

  5. I don't know how to eat either... I hope your evening was successful, and went well! I had one of those coffee induced productive and peaceful days today too. Lovely days!
    Chin up hun.