I do not know how to eat.
When I do eat, I purge. Even if it is something "healthy".
When I don't eat, I think about eating and purging.
I have no concept of enjoying and digesting a "reasonable" meal.
In the last two weeks almost everything I have consumed has been purged. Even when I've gone to the vegan restaurant around the corner. It is all fresh, vegan, and low calorie but I can not HELP but to purge it away.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS PICTURE????
I've resigned myself to my fate.
I will throw up until the weight stops dropping.
And then I will starve.
I do love you ladies so. Please don't think me too vain or too crazy.
You are the only ones that I think even begin to understand my madness.
I love you and appreciate you more then words can express.