Yeah, well....yesterday I was doing GREAT until I got home.
I am beginning to hate being home. M spends most of his time downstairs playing video games and I have entirely too much unsupervised time up in the bedroom.
Anyways, I got home feeling delightfully empty, spent a little "quality time" with M and I was feeling strong so I said I would go get him something for dinner. We have a dreadful tradition of me bringing him home a baconator from Wendy's on Friday nights. (I know, I know...Baconators...w.t.f???) I don't know how this became a thing but the man loves bacon and I love the man so...love makes you do strange things!
Anywhoooo, yeah, I had a breakdown and bought food-items-that-shall-not-be-named.
Ate. Barfed. Slept.
I feel confident that I got almost all of it out so I'm still putting the day well under 500 cals BUT STILL...
FUCK YOU MIA! YOU TREACHEROUS BITCH!!
I DON'T NEED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm better this morning. Had a salon appointment at 8am and am now home feeling better and wrapping M's birthday presents for the dinner tonight. I got him a iTouch 64GB! He is going to be so excited! I got him an iTouch a couple of years ago when they first came out and it is his favorite toy. The 3rd-gen is so much better that I just had to get him a new one. It was entirely too much money to spend and I would never buy it for myself but he loves cool toys. It makes him happy to have the latest thing. I am going to give him my 80GB classic iPod to use in his car (the iTouch won't work in the car for some reason) and I'll take his old iTouch which is all I need. It's a win for everyone!
I love the boy. If it wasn't his birthday I think I'd be trying to hurt myself because of last night. But I'm okay. Today is about M and not me.
Mia can kiss my fat ass.
Oh, and we are getting the first snow of the winter! It's pretty outside. :)
I hope you all have a good day and beat the demons that hound us.
Control is the fucking GOAL.